beyond category

words

so i’m going to try and write some thoughts and not delete them. right now my current mood is very relaxed, a little contemplative (as always), peaceful, etc. etc. doesn’t really matter. for some reason talking about my mood or “feelings” or any of that junk brings me back to the 6th grade. i always had to leave class, usually like an hour before lunch and talk to the school therapist. i’d walk in, sit down and point to the picture that best described my mood for the day… then talk about it and blah blah. but my reason for writing today isn’t any of that, people have been asking me a lot lately to write my thoughts on here more… it’s not so easy because i feel like talking is so pointless sometimes. it can feel so phony and unauthentic. lil wayne said real g’s move in silence like lasagna and i couldn’t agree more. i’m not a g or anything, but you get what i’m saying lol. i dont really know what to talk about for the most part really, it’d be cool if i could write on here everyday but that’s not going to happen. i’ve started using the notepad on my phone to write down all my thoughts, one of my friends told me it’d help with my anxiety and it really does. you should all write down what it is that’s bothering, or atleast try. it’s helped me understand myself much better, and it gives me a place to store my thoughts… it even brings more thoughts. i feel like when i write on tumblr it’s a little aimless, making it kind of hard to get what i’m talking about. i’m just rambling, my punctuation isn’t really all that great either, any ways moving a long. i’ve been called a recluse and anti social and shy and timid and etc. etc… but in reality i’m just a little picky with when i choose to speak. i’ve said enough for the day, good bye

Posted 9 months ago with 109 notes
Tags: here happy?